Personal Need: Erica on Survival Mode

Ahh…

I had a feeling something like that “survival thing” was happening last week. I hoped you’d have some grandparent, “We’ll take care of the kids, why don’t you go do something for yourself,” moments, but it sounds like many of those moments I’ve experienced with two kids on the road at the inlaws’ house… everything from the candy craziness down to the bedtimes after 10 every night… I totally get it–or at least, I get something pretty damn close to what you experienced… It sucks. But, you survived and it probably feels really good to be home.

Right now, my personal need is to not make a fool of myself in my biology class. You’d think I’d know a few of the extensive vocabulary words after doing what I do for so many years, but really, it sort of feels like I am learning a new language–and that is hard to do with two kids and working full time. So, I’ve got this whole, “I can do it” thing going on, but frankly, I cannot do it right, I cannot do “it” the way I would work this class if I was wife without kids… they come first and they need me–they need a lot of me.

Today I had my first exam and I would have done more if I had time, which I didn’t, but I think I did OK. I think I probably didn’t make a fool of myself. And that feels really damn good.

This piece originally appeared as a comment on Survival Mode.